Looking Forward

I realize that my application to Azusa was a form of back tracking. I have spent too much time looking back and worrying about whether or not I made the right decision when I chose Point Loma. I think to much about things when I should pray about them. God has not told me to move, and I believe Point Loma is where He put me so I am staying put. No matter what comes my way I have learned not to look back any more.

Fireflight - Recovery Begins

I talk, I talk too much
I never open up
To what You need to say
My words get in the way

I search for stillness
But worry kills it
I need to clear my head
I’m tired, I need to rest

It all comes down to this
The quiet in the end
I listen for Your voice
Recovery begins

The times I hear You most
Are when You bring me close
I’ll follow as You guide
While darkness turns to light

Whisper to me, whisper to me
Whisper to me, whisper to me

This is a song I listened to last week a couple times. I just love the lyrics, they encouraged me. God is leading and I will follow.
-Katherine

Stay or Go?

I just filled out an application for Azusa Pacific University. My times at Point Loma have been very mixed and I have found myself more restless than I was in High School. I don't know if I can take three more years in this place, it's so familiar and suffocating. I have seen the area my entire life, I don't feel like I have taken any steps in choosing Point Loma. Now the question remains, should I just take it the way it is and stick it out? Should I stay here? Is there a reason I choose here? or Should I go? Should I pack up and take a journey, an adventure to another place? Would it be any different there? Would I still be restless and unsatisfied? What is this feeling and is there any way to change it? What do I do?

Points of Light

I have learned never to underestimate God in any situation. He can see everything that is going on around you and he will guide you through every thing that comes your way. This week has been so uplifting for me with encouragement all around me. I can see the Points of Light in Point Loma that I missed with my critical eyes. I have been so quick to see all the bad things around me that I have missed the good. For example, the Greek used to be one of the most annoying places on campus because I usually found myself there on a forced visit listening to some speaker, speak about something I do not care about; this week I discovered that it can be a serene place to watch the sunset and just bask in the word of God.

I can now see the good everywhere I go and I smile and wave at everyone I know with a genuine smile.

"God I want to dream again/take me where I've never been/I want to go there/this time I'm not scared/now I am unbreakable/it's unmistakable/no one can touch me/nothing can stop me" - Fireflight

I listened to this song again and I realized how much it applied to me at the middle of this week where my life was changed. Now I am truly unbreakable as I have a powerful God by my side. No one can touch me and nothing can stop me as I press forward into life.

-Katherine

1 Corinthians 2

Verses that I've been meditating on:

1 Corinthians 2:4-5
And my speech and my preaching was not with enticing words of man's wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and or power.
That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.

It just stuck a chord with what I've been dealing with. It is not by the words which I speak that can change people, not through my own earthly wisdom and knowledge of the bible, which is limited. It is the power of God that dwells within me, that he is developing on the inside of me that my life will be like his life and that my words will strike the hearts of those around me. I have been sitting in the Greek just praying for God to put his power within me in a stronger way. I want such a great hunger and a passion for him that nothing of this world can effect me.

1 Corinthians 2:9
But as it is written, eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man the things which God ordained before the world unto unto Glory.

God has a plan for me that I can't even imagine. I may be restless with my life right now but I now see that I should find my rest in God because he is in control of everything. Nothing goes unnoticed by Him and He will lead my steps as I submit myself to him right now.

I encourage you!
Give thanks in all things
Praise Jesus every moment of the day
God Bless
-Katherine

Getting Back Up

I am finally standing up now! I am tried of being pushed around!

So this week had a rough start but with the support of friends, family and God,I am standing up and facing everything. I have been restored in confidence and I realize now that I can do it. God has never failed me and I just need to trust him with everything. I am going to get and A in Communications, I am going to make it through my crazy schedule and I am going to find a better way of living. I let people get to me too much and now I know that they don't matter that much.

I was listening to Britt Nicole's song "The Lost Get Found" today and it really began to encourage me in who I am. The lyrics "don't let the lights go down/don't let your fire burn out" really struck me. I have been trying to do to much in my own strength and the fire I used to have for the word of God has not been as evident in my life as it should: that is all changing because only through Him can I have strength!

Psalms 5:11-12 says "But let all those that put their trust in thee rejoice: let them ever shout for joy, because thou defendest them: let them also that love thy name be joyful in thee. For thou, Lord wild bless the righteous with favor wilt thou compass him as with a shield."

This verse encouraged me today because God is in control and he is protecting me from everything. He has blessed me in so many ways, I am taking up a challenge my Computer Science teacher gave my class last semester: She simply gave us a message on Thankfulness and showed us how God wants us to be thankful in all things. Even when things are going bad and it seems like there is nothing to be thankful for there is always something, even if it is as simple as being thankful for each breath we breathe because each breath means we are alive and we have the chance to live for God.

God Bless You All!
-Katherine

Point Loma Photo Reel:

My Dorm Room!


The view from the dorm lounge in the evening!


Evening Sunset over the Ocean!


The reason I chose Point Loma!


Afternoon Sky!


A sight I run to when I am feeling down.


Rohr Science, home to all Science majors! Computer Science is on second floor with Mathematics and Physics and Computer Information Systems.


Visiting the Cliffs on a saturday afternoon with my friend Danielle.


The CLiffs!


With my friends Danielle and Katerina, at the cliffs when Katerina came to visit!


At Fiji Yogurt with my covenant group.


Getting ready for powder puff.


On the powder puff field praying before the game.


On the powder puff field ready to win: even though we lost.


Backstage at the Cider Celebration.


Cider Celebration: Chorale performance!


With Danielle and Laura at the cliffs!


Jumping at the business center park!


2010 will be amazing!

Observation

People are so tolerant until you disagree with them! Those who tolerate everyone happen to not tolerate those who do not share their tolerance. How hypocritical of them!

So I have not had a good experience with people this week. Hope it gets better!

-Katherine